I use my dictator that’s why there is spilling mistakes and typos thank you for your understanding a colour outside the lines and give no fucks about spell chuX
Holy fuck I’m still listening to this homelessness is like the one of the massive causes of mental health issues you cannot get well without security why partly why I was so unwell over the last few years was because I was made homeless because many reasons but one of them was you know People choosing to call me crazy after doing a music video and stuff in a public last resort safety home that really isn’t safety I don’t care if they take your money and everything and they just control you even more but yes due to their actions which were proven to be wrong that I default through human rights and all of that that ended up making me homeless and I I literally had two weeks with mental health foundation to find to try and find myself place with no money nothing I wasn’t I was a housewife before that and yeah I watched some people in this what they call respite literally get kicked out and onto the streets for not trying hard enough so the amount of stress was hell but they were actually beautiful to me they were like Crystal you’re so autistic you’re so creative you can do anything you can take it all the way there were some of the first kindest people I met on this journey the ones that bailed me out of adult mental health unit and 12 B because they were like what what the hell is she doing in here she’s perfectly normal whilst I’m writing in a diary everybody’s name day 🚫time saying I’m coming for you which I did I backed it up should’ve taken to court I still wish I had sometimes that’s the only way to make a legislation change but instead would join the green so we’re gonna try and fix things the political way I really like what this independent guy saying i’d like to hear from him a lot more and speak to him because he’s on the point I cannot believe that’s the story with the harmlessness and the HOUSING situation I have met so many homeless people there’s a reason like our lowest resorts are refugees in our mental health homes and all of that all of which have been in still take money from you still don’t lift you up I mean I can’t speak for all of them but I can speak for a goddamn lot of them and that doesn’t help anybody get stronger Wellways is pretty good but even then their approach is kind of too much paperwork too much let’s talk about your mental health every day baby and you rather than actually letting you be independent but they were nice they gave they gave you hugs instead of throwing you in psych wards I haven’t got bad things to say about them but there is so much education that’s needed I would like to see the future particularly in the public cycles not Trump further traumatise people and take away their rights in their self-esteem you know my mother when she was in there the stuff that happened is it’s disgusting it was shut down Kenmore due to abuse that’s the only way I got my mother back most of my life she was locked in that place with horrific stories even before that my grandmother‘s years they throw you in there therefore they wouldn’t get involved in Domestic violence with my grandmother but they’d throw her in a psycho all the police lock up and blame her and just throw away the key and you’d be freaking lucky to get out so we’ve become a hell of a long way but I would still like to see the public the homeless assistant also People addicts there’s a reason people are addicts treated with respect it’s Victim blaming to 2 blame them there’s a reason they turn to those drugsand due to our system that Victim blames and doesn’t provide enough houses for starters
wow hits a lot of us very brave to say. i had bulimia quite severe at 15 with compulsive exercise obsession as well as purging. exercise was punishment then like everything. I thought the more I punished myself the better I would be and people would like me turn out that just made me weaker and allowed people to stomp on me more and the people that didn’t like me later told me they were jealous of me because I was different but you can’t tell I could never understand that then and they didn’t tell me then and what we think will make us happy and becomes our worst nightmare to be able to enjoy exercise now and whatever I eat and not give a damn come with come from a lot of years of learning that I wired my brain to hate myself then I could rewire it to love myself and be happy but it certainly helps a lot more to have Positive people around you that like you as well and nice to you I think I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and that’s probably after since my last separation three years ago since like dating other men I realised everybody likes the way I look and if they don’t who cares what they think as long as I’m healthy and also quitting alcohol on that and I decided it was time to love myself and I don’t care how many cakes we have we’re going to get healthy and actually understand the science behind what is good for me and punishing yourself mentally and physically is certainly not that’s not what exercise was meant for but I know the extreme difference between misery from having an eating disorder and literally if you don’t exercise you’ll have a panic attack because you think your head just won’t shut up saying you’re the horrible person in the world you’re so fat like you literally are so sick it’s not funny you’ve made yourself sick also eating and not sleeping makes you more crazy anyway that was actually the beginning of all my mental health issues brought on early I was eating disorder it’s all connected anyway and then I know now the joy of exercising just to make me happy just because it’s good for me and that’s a huge change and yeah I really hope to have all these positive people around me even this morning they were saying everyone was saying to worry I said I had a cake for breakfast is the only way I was gonna get up and get out here and I said oh don’t worry about it they also Positive and I think it’s true sometimes who cares I had a bad mental health week the difference is I don’t I don’t know for it up as I ignore the teenager but I also don’t feel crap about myself as I did for the majority of my early adult years as well and beat myself up and say you gotta go run it off I don’t have that attitude there anymore I’m like we do not care more cushion etc and as you know it’s about learning to love yourself and it’s important to be able to survive if it is if there’s a feminine or something and it’s important to exercise and be strong and eat to be strong and who cares about a few treats it looks or not everything but sometimes it’s easier to absorb yourself in an eating disorder when you’re not happy that was my escape from my controlling family in high school that was I liked the fact that I was obsessed with my food I no longer had to think and my weight I no longer had to think about all the other crap that I hated but it also became the death of me I’ve never really been able to give you any of my stories is why I don’t but this is a story from my life not the story for why I joined but it’s all it all comes down to really why I joined was to be happy mentally and save my life so thank you very much
I use my dictator that’s why there is spilling mistakes and typos thank you for your understanding a colour outside the lines and give no fucks about spell chuX
Holy fuck I’m still listening to this homelessness is like the one of the massive causes of mental health issues you cannot get well without security why partly why I was so unwell over the last few years was because I was made homeless because many reasons but one of them was you know People choosing to call me crazy after doing a music video and stuff in a public last resort safety home that really isn’t safety I don’t care if they take your money and everything and they just control you even more but yes due to their actions which were proven to be wrong that I default through human rights and all of that that ended up making me homeless and I I literally had two weeks with mental health foundation to find to try and find myself place with no money nothing I wasn’t I was a housewife before that and yeah I watched some people in this what they call respite literally get kicked out and onto the streets for not trying hard enough so the amount of stress was hell but they were actually beautiful to me they were like Crystal you’re so autistic you’re so creative you can do anything you can take it all the way there were some of the first kindest people I met on this journey the ones that bailed me out of adult mental health unit and 12 B because they were like what what the hell is she doing in here she’s perfectly normal whilst I’m writing in a diary everybody’s name day 🚫time saying I’m coming for you which I did I backed it up should’ve taken to court I still wish I had sometimes that’s the only way to make a legislation change but instead would join the green so we’re gonna try and fix things the political way I really like what this independent guy saying i’d like to hear from him a lot more and speak to him because he’s on the point I cannot believe that’s the story with the harmlessness and the HOUSING situation I have met so many homeless people there’s a reason like our lowest resorts are refugees in our mental health homes and all of that all of which have been in still take money from you still don’t lift you up I mean I can’t speak for all of them but I can speak for a goddamn lot of them and that doesn’t help anybody get stronger Wellways is pretty good but even then their approach is kind of too much paperwork too much let’s talk about your mental health every day baby and you rather than actually letting you be independent but they were nice they gave they gave you hugs instead of throwing you in psych wards I haven’t got bad things to say about them but there is so much education that’s needed I would like to see the future particularly in the public cycles not Trump further traumatise people and take away their rights in their self-esteem you know my mother when she was in there the stuff that happened is it’s disgusting it was shut down Kenmore due to abuse that’s the only way I got my mother back most of my life she was locked in that place with horrific stories even before that my grandmother‘s years they throw you in there therefore they wouldn’t get involved in Domestic violence with my grandmother but they’d throw her in a psycho all the police lock up and blame her and just throw away the key and you’d be freaking lucky to get out so we’ve become a hell of a long way but I would still like to see the public the homeless assistant also People addicts there’s a reason people are addicts treated with respect it’s Victim blaming to 2 blame them there’s a reason they turn to those drugsand due to our system that Victim blames and doesn’t provide enough houses for starters
wow hits a lot of us very brave to say. i had bulimia quite severe at 15 with compulsive exercise obsession as well as purging. exercise was punishment then like everything. I thought the more I punished myself the better I would be and people would like me turn out that just made me weaker and allowed people to stomp on me more and the people that didn’t like me later told me they were jealous of me because I was different but you can’t tell I could never understand that then and they didn’t tell me then and what we think will make us happy and becomes our worst nightmare to be able to enjoy exercise now and whatever I eat and not give a damn come with come from a lot of years of learning that I wired my brain to hate myself then I could rewire it to love myself and be happy but it certainly helps a lot more to have Positive people around you that like you as well and nice to you I think I’m the heaviest I’ve ever been and that’s probably after since my last separation three years ago since like dating other men I realised everybody likes the way I look and if they don’t who cares what they think as long as I’m healthy and also quitting alcohol on that and I decided it was time to love myself and I don’t care how many cakes we have we’re going to get healthy and actually understand the science behind what is good for me and punishing yourself mentally and physically is certainly not that’s not what exercise was meant for but I know the extreme difference between misery from having an eating disorder and literally if you don’t exercise you’ll have a panic attack because you think your head just won’t shut up saying you’re the horrible person in the world you’re so fat like you literally are so sick it’s not funny you’ve made yourself sick also eating and not sleeping makes you more crazy anyway that was actually the beginning of all my mental health issues brought on early I was eating disorder it’s all connected anyway and then I know now the joy of exercising just to make me happy just because it’s good for me and that’s a huge change and yeah I really hope to have all these positive people around me even this morning they were saying everyone was saying to worry I said I had a cake for breakfast is the only way I was gonna get up and get out here and I said oh don’t worry about it they also Positive and I think it’s true sometimes who cares I had a bad mental health week the difference is I don’t I don’t know for it up as I ignore the teenager but I also don’t feel crap about myself as I did for the majority of my early adult years as well and beat myself up and say you gotta go run it off I don’t have that attitude there anymore I’m like we do not care more cushion etc and as you know it’s about learning to love yourself and it’s important to be able to survive if it is if there’s a feminine or something and it’s important to exercise and be strong and eat to be strong and who cares about a few treats it looks or not everything but sometimes it’s easier to absorb yourself in an eating disorder when you’re not happy that was my escape from my controlling family in high school that was I liked the fact that I was obsessed with my food I no longer had to think and my weight I no longer had to think about all the other crap that I hated but it also became the death of me I’ve never really been able to give you any of my stories is why I don’t but this is a story from my life not the story for why I joined but it’s all it all comes down to really why I joined was to be happy mentally and save my life so thank you very much
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